Cry...ing... Over You... Cry...ing...

saw this unfinished blog on my notepad today and decided to complete it... the first few paragraphs were written in February this year, it must have been a few days after Valentine's Day cos that was the day we went out for dinner... i remembered that we both didn't have a date and at the last minute we decided to have dinner... thanx for coming down to raffles city to meet me (cos i was kinda busy in the office preparing for the HK business trip)... and also for sending me home after that... i'm thankful for everything...

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dunno wat happened... all of a sudden, i started crying while writing my blog... because of the stress? or because of you? the latter, i suppose...

it's been a long while since i felt this way... the loneliness... the feeling... the unknown... juz after i've written the blog about huang shu jun's definition of wat love is all about, that evening i met you... and u blew my mind away... your smile... your chattiness... your everything... it does help to know that we're both in the same field of work... at least we can empathise with what each of us has encountered...

it's a very strange feeling cos we've only met twice and you left for shanghai... the short period at your house for dinner was kinda awkward... firstly i was a total stranger to your parents and your friends... the fact that your ex was there sort of made the situation worse... and the way you and your ex behaved... OMG... you're just like a couple... tho' you kept reminding me that you're not...

well, i thought the best parting gift that i could give you was to see you off at the airport... which i did... and ended up sharing a cab with your ex on my way home...

thanx for all the SMSes and the short chat we had before the plane took off... and of course the other SMSes after you've reached shanghai... and the telephone calls and MSN chats we had over the next few days... these were all memories now... which i cherish dearly... at least for that very moment, it felt like i was in love with someone... the feeling was good, however shortlived it might be... like wat dey said in the tv advertisement a long time ago: 不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。。。

so, farewell, my friend... take good care of yourself in shanghai... tho' we may be apart now, i'm sure our paths will cross again in the future... and i'm looking forward to that moment...

cheers...
dave...
(feb 2005)