Preparing For The Worst

today is the ninth day since i lost my hearing on my left ear... beginning to accept life as it is now... and preparing for the worst to come, i.e. permanent loss...

still in the process of learning to differentiate the source of sounds and voices... although sometimes gotta ask to find out where it is coming from... kinda embarassing but no choice lor... hahahahaha...

as it is, i'm sure there are other things to be done: seek 2nd opinion lah, go for traditional chinese medicine lah, etc...

no sure wat else to write... maybe i'm getting sick about the whole thing now... the uncertainty of whether the hearing will return sometimes freak me out... and i have to continue to psych myself up to face it... not easy, but achievable...