Hope Fades Away...

did not update my blog for the last one week cos there was no improvement in the ear at all... wanted to write about the difficulties in and adjustments to my life since i lost my hearing on my left ear... it wasn't easy... will do dat another time...

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went for my medical followup at TTSH dis morning... sound test came back to be the same as 2 weeks ago... doc said that there's nothing else to be done except to wait for the hearing to come back on its own, if it ever happens... the anti-viral drug given to me the last time was to fight the virus and cure the injured cells... recovery is dependent on whether there's any surviving cells to bring the hearing back... else it would be a permanent loss of hearing... i like the way the doc described the situation... lay man's term... hahahahaha...

couldn't really accept the truth... not sure what to feel or how to react... in a daze... a world of disbelief... controlled my emotions cos mum was with me all these while and i didn't want her to see me cry...

another followup in one month's time...

going for counselling and therapy on coping with the ringing and buzzing tomorrow afternoon, 3pm...

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will seek a 2nd opinion at one of the private clinics at Mount Elizabeth hospital... stay updated here...

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the biggest irony so far is that i'm starting on a 5-day DJ workshop dis evening... paid for it before the sudden hearing loss happened... decided to continue with it since it has always been my dream to become a DJ one day...